Every once in a while my life seems to catch up to me, I get worried about everything and let it just blow out of proportion, only this time it feel like more.
I have always believed if you are unhappy what you're doing or where you are you should leave. For instance, if you hate going to work and are always un happy, get a new job. For some reason I just feel like I have no idea what I'm doing at my job now, I feel out of control and like I'm constantly trying and getting nothing. My boss has been out of town for the last week and will be until the end of this week so maybe it's needing guidance? Or maybe I just suck at my job and should find something I'm amazing at.
I also had a lot more confidence before, I feel fat and weird all the time. I dont ever know what to wear and can't figure out why, It's just like a life thing that I need to shake. A bad habit I need to break.
I also am missing my friends more and more. I need to go to Visit my bestfriends and I want to reconnect with the others. I'm counting down my days of dependence and hopeing to god things get better. I haven't had Winter depression this year and it just all seems to be hitting at once. I hate that feeling, where you feel like you're running as fast as you can yet everything seems to be an inch or two away at any given point.
